bad day

lengkap sudah semua yang bikin gue bete banget hari ini.
gue tadi gak jadi les gara2 temenin papa ke rumah sakit buat priksa mata. pake ribet banget lg milih kacamata doang
padahal hari ini kan level di les gue lg free time, waktunya buat mainan -.-
trus ada lagi orang bikin tambah hari gue jd makin emosi.
haaahhhh kalo emosi tingkat tinggi, bawaannya jd pengen nangis T.T
jadinya gue online chat facebook dan sahabat gue dr SMP Andy Lawrence nge-chat dan menghibur gue :D tp tetep aja ngerasa ada yg kurang :(

You-Ten 2 five

You did it again
You did hurt my heart
I don’t know how many times

You... I don’t know what to say
You’ve made me so desperately in love
and now you let me down

You said you’d never lie again
You said this time would be so right
But then I found you were lying there by her side

You.. You turn my whole life so blue
Drowning me so deep, I just can reach myself again
You.. Successfully tore myheart
Now it’s only pieces
Nothing left but pieces of you

You frustated me with this love
I’ve been trying to understand 
You know i’m trying i’m trying

You.. I don’t know what to say
You’ve made me so desperately in love
And now you let me down

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no one ever saw me like you do because something in your eyes left my heart beating so.

you've made me love again after a long while and i'm glad that it's you and i fear that i might have lost you forever.

i guess what i afraid of is happens now

every night i cried myself to sleep 

Thinking: "Why does this happen to me? 

Why does every moment have to be so hard to believe?"

probably it happens because all the things i felt never really showed 

Perhaps the worst is that i ever let you go. i regret that my foolish behavior with say to myself  'I should not ever let you go' (but actually i don't have any idea to leave you i just used to feel upset) :(

so, the consequent is 'to feel missing excessively' -.-

i don't know how much longer can I hold on to
all that i can do is waiting your text (just it)